zhilin made ck and i do the nobody dance with her when someone dedicated that song. AHAH! step by step!
end!
we were holding back our laughter all the way. hahaha!
Monday, May 25, 2009,10:30 pm
i hate being sickkkkkkkkkk ):
its the most frustrating thing in the world!
remember in primary school, you'd die to get sick or at least to fake.
so that you could go home. haha!
luckily mrs tan cancelled lessons and i could leave early.
came home early to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
it didnt really help though):
then went out to meet my gfs to eat BK, talk crap.
laugh at each other.
a short and tiring day, spent NOT studying.
okay! i shall go read abit later. haha.
anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAROLYN :D
school was quiten sian today though.
ms tang gave us some talk about how we should bond and stuff.
personally i think she shouldnt have.
it just heightened the tension in class i think.
*shrugs.
but i do agreee we should be mature enough to just settle things in the open. haha
aaaah, must brighten schooool up man!
Thursday, May 21, 2009,9:46 pm
"you'll never get married" - says Brian Ng Cheow Koon
):
):
hahaha!
anyway, Kris won! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD
i'm really really happy!
but i kind of thought Adam had the bigger voice.
but still, WE ALL LOVE KRIS :D
tchoukball was different today.
Monday, May 18, 2009,9:31 pm
do you know about this?
these pictures are super cooool luh!
made by HOGC peeeps man D:
people like Nic and the rest.
ohmytian, this kind of standard.
is what people PAY big bucks for.
seriously, such lengths i can never reach. haha.
they're super creative and awesome and amazing and WOAH.
imagine, they're just plus minus 17 years old man.
truly God expands and breaks all the walls of our limited creativity! hahahaha.
D:
the volleyball match today was really cooooool.
the girls are really PRO.
and we were all cheering and standing and cheering and sitting.
it was tiring.
imagine how tiring and stressful it was for them. haha.
by the guys match we were all dead.
i've never seen jianyu, hongzuo, mingqi and the rest play before!
lucky Cat was there to explain all the rules and stuff.
if not, we wouldnt know when to cheer and what we were cheering about :x
hahah so nooooob.
sheela came to my house after to take the polo bag.
LOL! we have memories with that trolley bag.
then we studied for about an hour and she left.
TIRED D:
the best,
best,
best part of today.
was having only half an hour of lessons.
(: (: (:
.
. Speaking to this mountain To move into the ocean with Your authority given to me No matter what happens Here I am standing On the hope of Your word Promised to me
Sunday, May 17, 2009,1:55 pm
random pictures! (:
kope-ed from jingfen's laptop.
RedRain!(:
23rd & 24th May :D
come come come! :D
Saturday, May 16, 2009,2:54 pm
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried. Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied. I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate, And the Master so gently said, “Child, you must wait!”
“Wait?, you say, wait!” my indignant reply. “Lord, I need answers, I need to know why! Is Your hand shortened? Or have You not heard? By faith I have asked, and am claiming Your Word.”
“My future and all to which I can relate Hangs in the balance, and You tell me to wait? I’m needing a ‘yes,’ a go-ahead sign, Or even a ‘no’ to which I can resign.”
“And Lord, You promised that if we believe We need but to ask, as we shall receive. And Lord, I’ve been asking, and this is my cry: I’m weary of asking! I need a reply!”
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate As my Master replied once again, “You must wait.” So, I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut And grumbled to God, “So, I’m waiting…for what?”
He seemed then to kneel and His eyes wept with mine, And He tenderly said, “I could give you a sign. I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun. I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run. All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be. You would have what you want…but, you wouldn’t know Me.”
“You’d not know the depth of My love for each saint; You’d not know the power that I give to the faint; You’d not learn to see through the clouds of despair; You’d not learn to trust just by knowing I’m there; You’d not know the joy of resting in Me When darkness and silence were all you could see.”
“You’d never experience that fullness of love As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove; You’d know that I give and I save … (for a start), But you’d not know the depth of the beat of My heart.”
The flow of My comfort late into the night, The faith that I give when you walk without sight, The depth that’s beyond getting just what you asked Of an infinite God, who makes what you have last.”
“You’d never know, should your pain quickly flee, What it means that ‘My grace is sufficient for thee.’ Your dreams for your loved ones overnight would come true, But, oh, the loss! if I lost what I’m doing in you!”
“So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me And though oft may My answers seem terribly late, My wisest of answers is still but to wait”
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i read this in sharyl's blog and i was just amazed.
stunned.
read it once, twice, three times.
drama night last night was pretty gooood.
saw a few familiar faces(:
people like xinlin, fadhil, peck hui, rachel and leonard.
their acting is pretty goood!
it was coool watching them there(:
but happiness doesnt last in my life man.
every pinch of joy i have is accompanied by 10kg of CRAP.
haha.
i'm so so so tired nowadays):
can't seem to catch a break.
last night, my dad just told my sis and i that our family has taken yet another blow financially.
they told my mum not to go back to zhonghua anymore ):
he told us, we dont have enough money for next month,
or to send my bro to uni.
no more holidays and what not.
i was sitting at the back of the car when he said this.
so they could not see the tears i tried so hard yet failed to hold back
whats happening! D:
Lord in these times i want to cling on tighter to You.
but when will these times end?
maybe in 2012. haha.
Sunday, May 10, 2009,12:41 am
Reinhard Bonnke
an amazing beyond brave person.
a good friend just told me.
you gotta start building your noah's ark then put in everything that matters inside then ask God to bring down a storm to drown out all the shit but remember you can never build an ark alone(:
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today was a day plagued with good food, horrible cramps and hurtful words.
& my grandma's parkinsons and athritis is getting worse.
pray for her please ):
Friday, May 08, 2009,8:52 pm
my sis bro and i were laughing our faces off !!
i almost fell off the chair! haha!
but his dancing is quite zai leh.
and SUPER accurate! hahaha
"Throughout recorded time a majority of the world's people have been tormented by poverty
or by the fear of poverty,
by want,
hunger and insecurity.
Consumerism promises not only that they will be released from this ancient bondage, but also that they can by-pass on a
bare sufficiency,
a frugal security,
and break through into the satisfaction of a limitless desire."
"The ideology (consumerism) shows human life,
not as toil, labour and want,
but as endless fun, entertainment, escape, money, sex;
and perpetual distraction from the pain and pleasure of being fully human"
- Jeremy Seabrook, 1997.
something random we studied in GP. haha!
The trend in the past was to make huge chim earth-shaking societal commentary.
as if the rest of the world could not see.
now its become cliche.
but still true.
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i feel this sudden urge to read.
read and read and read. haha!
i managed to score the high score on delicia's hp game chuzzle!
i was super super super super happy!
it was REALLY funny.
delicia's now set not to lose to a colour-handicapped person
in a colour game.
HAHAHAH!
came home quite early today,
because last minute everyone couldnt make it to study in church):
bumped into my brother going home early from camp too.
if i get to talk to him, my first question would be
"how did you lose all that weight??" :x
anyway, more pick up lines! :DDDDDD
they're fascinating!
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Excuse me, I think you have something in your eye.
Oh wait, it's just a sparkle.
You're hotter than donut grease. [ lol?! ]
Can I have directions?
[To where?]
To your heart.
Do you have a BandAid?
I just scraped my knee falling for you.
You're so beautiful that you made me forget my pickup line.
Thursday, May 07, 2009,10:27 pm
this is an email i got.
things a girl just doesn't realise.
apparently its really true.
is it ?
1. Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer than you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.
2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.
5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.
6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.
8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch Goodbye.
9. Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
10. Girls are guys' weaknesses.
11. Guys are very open about themselves.
12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
14. Guys love you more than you love them.
15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot.
16. No matter how much guys talk about butts and boobs, personality is key.
17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.
18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.
19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.
20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.
21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.
22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.'
23. ,b>If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.
24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.
25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.
26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.
28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.
29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.
30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.
32. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of them.
33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs. haha it's true..
34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually
35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs.
36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.
37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.
38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.
life's that real.
the school security guard shouted at janice and me man D:
because janice ran away from him - literally.
and he thought she was my sister.
D:
D:
Wednesday, May 06, 2009,11:30 pm
cg was goood today!(:
thanks zhengy, pf and jieru for the listening ear(:
sharyl kate kua say my pick up lines cmi.
you should SEE our pick up lines of the day in school man!
then you'll say mine are the best.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
this is just funny. lol.
go to JOKES.COM and watch the videos!
they're reaaaaally funny.
hahaha!
Tuesday, May 05, 2009,12:07 am
i hate that stupid greeen project. hahah.
it made me steal a box from the library):
i spent the past few hours working on it.
and it honestly ..
looks like crap.
hahahaha! i look at it myself and i want to slap myself.
the class is going to be pissed :x HAHA!
oh well, at least we handed in something right?
everyone was kind of down today.
or rather, tired over who-knows-what ):
carolyn, gf and i got really emo and started drawing emo suicidal jump-off-the-building-with-lightning-bolts-above pictures on our hands.
and then, pe was fuuuuuun!
at first it was sian because we couldnt agree on what to play.
but then angmoh just came in and said "captain's ball?"
and we played captain's ball! :D
though i could tell Cat wanted to play handball for a really long time ):
ohmytiannn
i havent laughed so hard in a really long time.
i felt my tummy cringe and cramp in pain as we all ROFL-ed at our lack of ball skills. hahah!
and then we just started bouncing balls off jug's tummy and head :x
i've not seen our class so happy together in awhile (:
hm, went to toa payoh to finaaaaally see that china i-phone.
"Ti-phone"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA :x
its quite reasonable, $180 bucks.
but it doesnt have wi-fi.
so i think the games would suck.
which is what i want :x
THEN,realised i forgot to pay mrs kweeee.
so i had to bus back all the way to serangoooon -.-
and then walked all through j8 trying to find a job.
gosh, the pay sucks for part-timers now.
i wish i could cut school and work full-time.
hahahaha, but then. that would be a horrible life.
down to artbox and yami yoghurt.
CHERIE, HOWWWWWWW ?! ):
stupid pay. haha!
what else can we do when money makes the world go round.
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i was shocked when love wasnt one of the fundamental and primary needs in maslow's hierachy ):
sad):
plus Carolyn told us a sad and horrible story called "knowing"
depressing, thought-provoking. haha!
gooooodnight(:
Sunday, May 03, 2009,10:08 am
pick up lines !(:
You may fall from the sky,
you may fall from a tree,
but the best way to fall... is in love with me.
People call me John, but you can call me Tonight!
Excuse me, if I go straight this way,
will I be able to reach your heart?
Saturday, May 02, 2009,11:52 pm
turns out i called the lady for the sunday job too late,
and she's already found someone else ): ): ):
so,
im going job-hunting tomorrow! :DD
wish me luck man,
i must must must must must get a nice good job fast! (:
im so so so glad i didn't miss service today,
i felt a breakthrough,
i was feeling a little vomit-ish.
and many times i wanted to run off to the toilet.
but i'm glad i stayed throughout.
we had a church-wide temperature taking today.
it was really cooool as we all compared temperatures. hahaha.
its funny though,
last time, 37.5degrees already made everyone kanchiong.
now, the mark's 38.1degrees.
anything less, and nobody gives a poop. hahah!
also, im glad jieru talked to me today.
it felt good to let things out to my leader(:
her prayer comforted me.
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NOT JUST, my life, my needs, my desires.
step into a life that's not all just about you.
and trust me, you'll walk out 987654321 times more satisfied & secure(:
im happy to proclaim that though my situations have not improved much.
but i'm feeling alot better(:
i don't want to sound like some religious freak.
but truly,
on thursday night, i was at my lowest
and i surrendered everything to God during QT.
truly broke down all my emotional walls.
and was broken and vulnerable.
all i said was "God, i really really need you"
change didnt happen overnight.
not even after night and after day.
i took some action by spending some mutual time with my family.
took the time to quieten my heart to wait on God.
and i guess the weekend took some time off from school crap.
and of course i shared my problems with friends and cgl.
like i said, things have not gotten much better.
im still struggling, and probably always will.
but now,
every night before i sleep.
i'm not overwhelmed with tears or hurt.
but i feel some peace, and like much of my burden has been lifted from me.
i feel comfortable comfort, and i can sleep better(:
this particular 2 weeks in my life have taught me such :
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you can't change your circumstances, but you can change how you embrace them.
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never be afraid to be vulnerable before God, and before your friends and loved ones,
you'll be surprised at what you may learn.
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never stop moving,
you can take a break, but never,
NEVER admit defeat and give up,
allowing the walls of your circumstance to crumble on top of you.
it seems the solution's always that one step away.
you have to push for it(:
Pst Lia said something today that stuck in me.
there's a limitation to our skills and efforts.
anything else we drawn from God(:
He crushes the walls of our limitations, reveals to us so much more!(:
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the past two weeks. i honestly thought i had to do it on my own. i thought i could manage on my own. it was only today, that i realised just how true those words are. your own strength and efforts can only bring you so far. but when you lean on God, something just clicks naturally. it's hard to explain, hard to accept i guess, if you havent felt it for yourself. all i can say is, trust me ^^
i will die to self, bend my will if i have to! patience yiwen! :D
ohmytian, i tell you.
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